Saturday, April 16, 2005

...When Life is Complete...

Dear Bloggie,

Sorry to ditch you for so long dude. Didnt have the time to write anything *proper* for you, and well...ummm... I am not really in the mood to write a good, structured piece of writing even today... Part of the reason is that its almost 10 in the morning right now and I havent slept all night, and part of it is that I am distracted by the thought of someone... One of my best friends once said to me that you KNOW you have fallen in love when you start recognizing the cologne that your beloved wears... It seemed kind of mushy at the time when she said it, but I guess sometimes even in our mushy-ness, we tend to touch upon the little details we so often miss out...

I am ACTUALLY in love. ( I wont be writing all this at ten in the morning if I wasnt ). And well I am proud to say that I have fallen for one of the most amazing girls that I have ever met. And I had NEVER imagined I would fall so madly in love with someone of THAT sort. But well, Cupid has his own ways. (What a bloody bugger ! Seems to complicate things when they are not supposed to get complicated !)

I think I should go to bed now. Have to wake her up before I go to sleep.

But maybe a Pablo Neruda poem before anything else. Its called 'Don't Go Far Off, Not Even For A Day'. Its a really nice read for me right now, perhaps because I can relate to it more...

Don't go far off, not even for a day, because --
because -- I don't know how to say it: a day is long
and I will be waiting for you, as in an empty station
when the trains are parked off somewhere else, asleep.

Don't leave me, even for an hour, because
then the little drops of anguish will all run together,
the smoke that roams looking for a home will drift
into me, choking my lost heart.

Oh, may your silhouette never dissolve on the beach;
may your eyelids never flutter into the empty distance.
Don't leave me for a second, my dearest,

because in that moment you'll have gone so far
I'll wander mazily over all the earth, asking,
Will you come back? Will you leave me here, dying?




Thanks a million bloggie. I guess my life is really complete now... I am actually doing weird things now... Just wonder when I'll delete this post ! But kher, in any case, at 10 in the morning, you just gave me the perfect excuse to think and write *something*. Thanks a million buddy.

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

When The Stars Go Blue

The Corrs

Dancin' where the stars go blue
Dancin' where the evening fell
Dancin' in your wooden shoes
In a wedding gown

Dancin' out on 7th street
Dancin' through the underground
Dancin' little marionette
Are you happy now?

Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue

Laughing with your pretty mouth
Laughing with your broken eyes
Laughing with your lover's tongue
In a lullaby

Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue, blue
When the stars, when the stars go blue, blue
When the stars go blue
When the stars go blue, blue, blue
Stars go blue
When the stars go blue

Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue, yeah
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you, I'll follow you, I'll follow you
I'll follow you, I'll follow you, yeah
Where do you go, yeah
Where do you go, Where do you go

Saturday, December 11, 2004

The Quest is on Again...

When I had initially started writing on this blog site, I had reserved it only for poetry... which I felt, at the time, was the ONLY something I could use to express what I felt... no one could POSSIBLY tell what I meant, or the context of the writings at that time... Well, I conveyed the feelings, and yet I could not satiate myself...

Slowly and surely, words started diasppearing... what I did write or think, I never bothered to put up on the site... maybe the inspiration disappeared... maybe those whom I wrote about were never the same any more... maybe the relationships changed...

Times did certainly change... and I just could not express myself in changing times...

I apologize to *ALL* (chuckle here) my fans who have missed me and my writings... I am back... and I promise to write every now and then, just like before... but now, I would just like to put up everything... in ALL the styles that I can possibly express myself in...

Writing this little piece has given me a renewed inspiration... writing for the sake of writing... writing to express what I believe in... writing to see if *I* have changed... The Quest to discover the innerself is on again...

I have missed writing... I have missed you bloggy...

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Monday, February 02, 2004

Seeds of Love...

The Seeds of Love That I had Sown...
Have Burgeoned into Saplings of Hate...
Eroding the Pastures of Love in my Garden
Smiling with Such Despecible Hate...


I Sit Besides These Saplings Today...
Hoping...
That My Tears will Have the Power...
To Return The Green to These Leaves...
Of Indifference and Apathy...
That I Have So Callously Produced...


Monday, December 01, 2003

Drowning in My Tears...

This Brittle Soul of Mine...
Wallows in Self-Pity...
Though Shattered like Glass...
Sheaths a Facade of Fortitude...
Drowning Somewhere in a Whirlpool...
Of My Tears...


Thursday, November 13, 2003

Abyss...

The Sun Sets...
Exterminating the Fountain of Hope...
That I Drank From...
I Never Noticed...
Never Realised...
That the Sun Sets Too...
But Not as my Appanage...
Withering my Subsistence...
With Utmost Immunity...
And Yet...
The Sun Smiles...
And Shines...
Perhaps...
At My Tears...
That Never Drop...
Never Wet...
Encapsulating Within Themselves ...
The Abyss of Insensitivity...
Of Obscurity...

Waiting For You To Say Something...

The Clock Ticks Over...
Silence Beckons the Infinitesimal Distance That Exists Between You and Me...
Jading the Facade of Serenity...
Shrounding the Resplendant Moon...
And the Beaming, Radiating Sun...
Yet the Flower Blossoms...
And the Flame Kindles...
Waiting for You...
Waiting for You to Say Something...

Saturday, October 18, 2003

Alfaaz Ka Bhanwar...

Sunn Itna Chuka Huun Main...
Keh Ab Sochnay Kee Himmat Hee Nahin Rahee...
Alfaaz Kay Uss Bhanwar Main Phans Gaya Huun...
Jahan Khud Alfaaz Say Hee Nafrat Honay Lagee Hai Mujh Ko...
Magar Badqismati Yeh Hai...
Kay Saaya Uss Paer Kay Neechay Hee Laina Parta Hai...
Jis Kay Talay Laitnay Main Ek Ajab Sa Khauf Hai...
Jis Ka Saaya Humesha Maujuud...
Laikin Jis Ka Phal Hamesha Meetha Nahin...